I feel happier and worried all at the same time. It is great to not feel restricted and deprived. It's so nice to attend family functions and not worry about what or how much I will eat. It's wonderful not to feel shame and sadness and not to feel like a failure because of what I have eaten. It is also scary because it is very new to me. I am fearful of not having any rules because I am afraid of what and how much I will end up eating. I am afraid of putting on piles more weight and feeling worse; physically and mentally. It just seems like I should be dieting and have food rules to follow because that's what I have always done and that's what all the books and "experts" say to do to lose weight and be healthy. This hasn't worked for me so far; that's why I am stepping out of my comfort zone and trying a completely different approach :)
Many of you may be thinking, "Of course you will gain weight if you eat what you want". I thought the same thing but it has been explained to me in a different way that does make sense, and I will admit I am noticing a change in my thinking and habits already. I will get into this in a later post :)
Some of my food this past week :) There has also been restaurants, take-out and junk food; sandwiches, cheesecake, breakfast sandwich, chips, ice cream, and brownies; and I'm not feeling too bad about it.