Now I am starting to fully see the problematic relationship I have with food and the distorted view I have of myself. Yes, I'm overweight but there's more to me than that. Also, years and years of dieting has not changed the fact that I am overweight, so why continue down the road that is clearly not working?
I was looking back at some old photos of myself, about 15 years ago. A time in my life, as most, where I thought I was fat and needed to diet. I didn't look big in any of them and I remember feeling so huge and couldn't wait to get the weight off. I have missed too many things in my life due to negative feelings about my weight. I have not enjoyed my life as much as I should because my weight and negativity were always in the back of my mind. No more. I am living for today, whatever weight that is.