Nope, I'm Not Trying to Lose Weight.
I have given up the negative diet mentality along with all the different weight-loss diets (almost 2 years now) but it isn't always easy and I still struggle. I feel like sometimes I crave diet journaling and calorie counting, and even food restriction; even though I despise it all, and no it didn't work for me in the past and actually made things worse in the long run. I think it's the sense of order and control I crave, or the feeling like I'm doing something regarding my weight and health.
Right now I just want to focus on my happiness and health; not my weight.