This day started off no differently but it did change at the end; thankfully.
It seems I have went up in size; was not happy about that but really wasn't a surprise either. I tried a couple of large size tops and actually almost had a panic attack in the dressing room. I thought I was stuck. Yup, actually stuck in a shirt. How embarrassing would that be to call out to a saleslady and say "Ahhhh, excuse me, could you help me get out of this shirt please? It seems I'm stuck and since I don't like how it looks on me, I don't plan to buy it, so it would be really hard for me to leave while still wearing it."
I calmed myself down and figured a way to get myself unstuck and out of the shirt that really must have been mislabeled as a large ;)
I really needed some new clothes as I have been wearing my work clothes (I teach pre-k so they are pretty comfy) all the time now. I ended up buying one shirt. Not good. I got home and was really upset and depressed and the first thing I thought....ok the second thing I thought was I really need to get on a diet (the first thing was what will I stuff in my face to make me feel happy for a millisecond). I know I have issues, but that's the point of my blogging. To face my problems, hopefully start dealing with them and living a better life, and hoping to help people along the way that may be feeling the same as me at times.
Thankfully, I didn't resort to my old habits. First time for everything :) I didn't binge eat anything and I didn't plan my new diet regime to start on Monday. I consider that progress. I even went back shopping, with Hubby, that evening. He saw I was sad and upset so he offered to come along with me, ahhhh some sweet :) Went to some different stores and actually tried a plus size store. The salespeople were so helpful and happy and I ended up finding clothes that fit and looked nice and I was happy with :) Yay! Win, win.